its been a while since i visited you... im sorry cos im busy wif my life (not exactly) and i didnt really know what to pen down (yeah, right.. excuses)
people have been concerned.. about me... and marriage...
sriusly i duno why... n honestly, its not that desperate to me...
i mean, yes i would love to get married, who wouldnt right... but im not that into it too much... (in other words, desperate)
and people started asking why....
the reason i give?
not the time maybe...
not really into it...
if it happens, then it will...
bla bla bla...
the REAL reason?
well, its actually because im afraid...
not becos im afraid of being committed to someone...
but of something else.... something that i know i cant, even if i want to...
n i cant becos of something that happened, or exactly something that i did in the past...
n therefore im afraid... dat he, whoever he is, can never accept it...
no one knows... although just a few knew what had happened...
but no one knows what resulted from it....
ive been keeping it within me for so long now....
maybe this is the consequence that i hv to pay for my wrongdoings...
ugghhh, now im teary-eyed thinking about it...
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