Am Unwilling Party....

if i follow my heart, i know i wouldnt...
it was hard...
but as hard as it seems... im letting it go....
lil by lil... piece by piece....
till all of it, all of the memory...
the memory of u, of us... fade away....

so plz understand if im not there anymore...
if i dun reply to any of ur callings...
this is for the best.. i guess....

Failure To Launch...

*sigh*
lain yang aku cannon...
lain pulak yg dtg bergolek...

nasib~ nasib~ ....

Keep Buggin' Me...

i spend most of my time sleeping now..
n although it seems like i have plenty of rest, apparently im not...
cos i keep tossing n turning...
i've stretched, sit up real straight, less sitting, painkillers...
but the ache keep buggin' me...

i dun wanna go hospital no more...!

Out Of Your Head...

yes, we do chat on phones....
yes, u sms me almost evryday...
yes, we laugh and joke around...
yes, we do go out for movies, dinner, shopping...

but,
that doesnt mean u could hold my hand...
that doesnt mean u could call me 'dear', 'honey', 'baby'...
that doesnt mean that i should report everything i do to u...
that doesnt mean we should buy or wear same color, same design of clothes...

becos, i didnt see u as my other half, really i didnt...
plz, get that thinking out of your head...

Bila Tiba Waktu Berbuka...

since hari ni 1st day puasa kan, so me good gerl dok umah satu hari... anyway, mom cook mee kuah n some jemput2 (tak tau lak y dia tk wrk niari)... so masa dgr ustaz tu baca2 b4 azan kan, me duduk la kat meja mkn, mee da sedia dpan mata, siap ngan air bird nest lagik (father buat)... so masa tgh tenung tu mee, teringat la zaman2 puasa dulu2...

primary school :

ni zaman kental skit la.. puasa tk puasa sama jugak, aktif jugak... not reali much memories time puasa... cuma biasa la, kat kantin tu bole nmpak members2 minom air kan... isshhh, aku ni kalau tk puasa pon, tkla sampai dpan2 org aku minom.. hehehe...

sec school : zaman ni ade bit tough skit... ni zaman la da mula ponteng puasa atas sebab2 tertentu (paham2 je lah).. then time recess, kite sume (mostly gals) duduk blakang kantin, dkat ngan rifle range... yg tkle puasa tu, siap ngan potato chips, mkn utk alas perut... then ingat jugak kite practice utk malay dance.. hahaha... kena paksa ngan cikgu.. ingat lagi lagu aishah about serikandi sumting like that... kekek sey.... then da mula start planning jln raya... ingat lagik, the most no of ppl is 20+.... masok bus je, bas trus penoh.. hahahaha...

poly :

poly not realy much la... cos cuma few malay peeps je.. then ramai yg 'baik'2... so left me n bestie... usually kalau da balik lambat, buka puasa ngan dia.. kat luar or kat umah dia... part ni pon da mula2 jinak ngan mirc chat.. hahaha...

MIRC chat :

hah, ni zaman kcohrable... ni sume start from my sis renna la... dia start chatting, aku pon terbabit.. but time dia chat, aku membontot je la... tk byk involved... bila aku sendiri yg da mula chat (sebab kakakku da kawin), hah, baru kecoh.. plan nk buka puasa kat mana. aku ingat lagik dulu suka buat gathering besar2 konon iftar sesama... always kat main topic channel... sape pandai2 tukar topik, konfirm kena kick... gathering mcm gini la yg slalu nmpak muka2 baru.. hahahaha...

NIE :

ni zaman tkla kecoh nah.. sume da besar2, da matured enuff la... sumtimes je kuar buka puasa ngan members from NIE... but bcos zaman ni pon aku masih gak contact ngan budak2 IRC (sampai skarang oi), ada gak gi buka puasa ngan drg....

nak pikirkan balik, mmg kekek la... haizzz... cpat sungguh masa berlalu eh... miss ah those days... tapi aku tau bukan aku sorang la yg ade kenangan2 mcm ni... konferm ade lagi umat2 yg serupa dgnku... hahahaha....