How Could You...

it came as a sudden thing... cant sleep so i browse around.. blog-hopping, online shopping bla bla bla... n i dunno how i get there, but i did.. i came to a site... a customiseable site... where i see all his pics edited and plastered all across the site... his pics that most of it i recognise, cos im the one who captured it... the site is full of him, and her...

and jus as sudden as the clicking thing happen, i felt sharp pain.. in my heart... n tears started streaming... n its still streaming as i wrote this...

its not because i still hv sumting for him.. not becos my feelings are still there.. if given a choice right now, im doing the right thing... i dun wish to be his anymore...

its been more than a year... and i still cant get over the fact on how he spun his web of lies... how i felt so bloody stupid even when im the one whos suppose to be good at thinking thru things... i sumhow blame myself, for being so naive.. n so gullible... but how could anyone be so heartless... how could anyone stab sumone so hard that it pierce right thru, but still felt nuthing for it...

i need a shoulder to lean on right now... n i realy need a hug... pls...