From The Deepest Pit Of My Heart...

i know im a person who dun say much abt things dats happening in my life... but really, i would want to pour it out here... if u like, hv a go reading it.. if u dun, too bad... my blog, my say...

Family :
my family has been well... dad has been less strict.. i dunno why.. maybe he realise his little girl has matured.. or maybe he jus tak kuasa.. lol.. anyway, his health kinda deteriorating, although he didnt show it.. he had a minor day surgery the other day, and me, who had nvr taken urgent leave before, took some days jus to accompany him.. after all, im quite close to him.. mom is still the same, less talking though.. i cant imagine how our life would be like when both my parents had stopped working...
my younger sis, still the same as ever, blur and mind her own life.. currently she is single at the moment, so i guess she spend more time at home n wif kuzzins... my elder sis.. not sure abt her.. i guess she is goin thru a rough time wif her hubby... its been so long since my bro-in-law came over to our place, even to a family chalet... and my parents kind of asking whats wrong... i dun wanna be involved, afterall its their marriage, but it kinda bothers me that its affecting all of us... i did ask her several times, but its always the boring old answers... so i let it be... but it makes me wonder, do marriage only last that long? cos it seems to me, it is right now...

Work :
i seem to think that this year, i do a lot of projects n tasks... compared to last year... everyone in my close cliques are doing fine... jus some bitches n assholes around the office who cant seem to keep their mouth n nose to themselves... but i take it positively though.. at least theres ppl for us to kutuk smpai mati... hehehe.. ive been coping quite well though... jus hope economy is picking up real soon so i will get my well-deserved bonus...

Money :
i always hv this problem of saving... some ppl say my hands itchy.. some say im jus too generous... not sure which is true... but im trying hard to get the savings part done... after all, i suddenly become more worried of the future rite now... at this moment, i can still manage... but i wanna set myself to achieve a level where i dun hv to be bothered by any financial issues anymore....

Friends :
Friends hv been great this year... its only like half a year gone past, yet i hv lots of fun... tried lots of diff things... best of all, i know lots more new frens... n lucky for me, they find me nice to mix wif... ;)

Health :
At the beginning of this year, my health is not that good actually... i was hospitalised for few days, same reason as last year plus gastric... it was a horrible 4 days, especially when i vomit everything that i ate, n the time where i feel so much pain that they inject me wif morphine... at that moment, i can feel how a person on drugs feel... the world jus spin around in slow motion...
oh, had my wisdom tooth out too... the right bottom one.. its growing sideways, it really shows in the xray... but the operation is not really that painful... the bitter part is when i dun feel my nerve at all... even now theres a lil bit of numbness on my lower right lip...

Love :
hv i found the right one? maybe, maybe not... im not sure if right one exist anymore... i actually stop looking.. i realise as time goes by, and as we age thru the years, our criterias for these kinda things changed... i remember last tyme the boys i had a crush wif are cute ones... so looks does matter at that time... then i look for sumone wif humour... then those financially stable... but now, i hv a career of my own, my car, my family, my frens... so my criteria chg again... i m after all an independent person... so i jus need sumone who see me as his everything... besides his family... i guess if its that way, other things will jus fall nicely to their places...

this post has gotten too long... till the next tyme then... when my heart n soul are ready to pour out their messy contents again...