how do i explain this...
every few days, theres always things that lingers in my mind...
yes, life seems like a bliss when u think u hv had everyting u always wanted...
when u think the future is already bright n cheery for u... when u think u r so definitely sure of wat u r getting into... when u think, yes, this is great for you, u dun need anything more...
dats the keyword... "u think"...
but then things happen... n sumtimes u cant help feeling incomplete, feeling unstable, feeling vulnerable, feeling like u gonna shatter to pieces any moment soon... n that makes u kind of wondering.. what is missing now...?
im not sure if the past plays a part on it... not sure if the past still matters...
n if it does, which part of it that i seem to hv difficulty in letting go?
this question has been playing on my mind... n i decide to sit n ponders upon it for a while...
n i got to narrow it down to feelings... maybe its those emotional feelings that i hv had that i cant seem to let go... but then, i dunno which feeling is it... to a person, maybe? to a situation? to a moment?
my mind is cracking up now... n i guess the 'crack lines' are kinda obvious since my colleagues seems to see that im way off my track...
HELP!
p.s : i need a hug....
It's Been So Long...
hi blog,
several things has happened... i'm sorry if ive not blogged for a while... was actually thinking if its worth it to pen down wateva is goin on in my life rite now...
things has been goin extremely downslope between me n a gal... we hv always been part of this group which of cos ties in wif blood... but i guess, that was not enuff... i discovered she didnt trust us... us, who she know for almost 20+ yrs now... maybe becos we kind of interfere wif her ongoing obsession wif guys.. but hey gal, those u hurt are those we kinda noe of, in one way or another... we cant help it when those guys complained n xpressed their dislike of how u treat them... n i trust u the most, n u could tell ppl, ppl who u didnt noe for 20 yrs, what ive been telling u... if i wanna be cruel, i would hv told ppl ur stories too, including those overstays at hospital... but i didnt... nope, i did not stoop to ur level...
n how crushed i am, when u didnt even wanna meet wif frens, when u get to noe im wif them... now, i couldnt even meetup wif my fren? jus becos u hv become her bestie? plz.. remember, u noe them thru me... n i didnt even say anything when u hang out wif them... n wat lame reason u gv for not coming down while in actual fact u jus do ur emo acting so u dun hv to come down....
plz, im not born yesterday, n i didnt go to school for the sake of being taken in wif stupid reasons n fake acts... oh yea, im jus an officer, while u hold an EXECUTIVE position in ur company, wif ur lil BB, that makes it as if u r so damn important... whats wif u not under SG payroll, but instead under Maldives HR... who am i, whose bound only under spore govt, to compete wif u... haha, i laff big ass off when i know abt that lil story u spun.... but nevertheless, ive nvr told this story of urs to that one person who is deeply in love wif u rite now... nope, im not that cruel...
like u wish to hv, not to trouble us all... i take it literally.. but dun go around wif pitiful face saying u r lonely, had no one to turn to, bla bla bla... cos, u r the one who chose to be that way.... we r always here... u dun wanna open up n b frank abt things, i hv nuthin to say then...
oh btw, i hv nvr say"beware of her"... i only say "jus be careful" cos i dun wan another person ive known to be heartbroken... but i guess, im misintepreted, as always....
p.s : beauty is only skin deep...
several things has happened... i'm sorry if ive not blogged for a while... was actually thinking if its worth it to pen down wateva is goin on in my life rite now...
things has been goin extremely downslope between me n a gal... we hv always been part of this group which of cos ties in wif blood... but i guess, that was not enuff... i discovered she didnt trust us... us, who she know for almost 20+ yrs now... maybe becos we kind of interfere wif her ongoing obsession wif guys.. but hey gal, those u hurt are those we kinda noe of, in one way or another... we cant help it when those guys complained n xpressed their dislike of how u treat them... n i trust u the most, n u could tell ppl, ppl who u didnt noe for 20 yrs, what ive been telling u... if i wanna be cruel, i would hv told ppl ur stories too, including those overstays at hospital... but i didnt... nope, i did not stoop to ur level...
n how crushed i am, when u didnt even wanna meet wif frens, when u get to noe im wif them... now, i couldnt even meetup wif my fren? jus becos u hv become her bestie? plz.. remember, u noe them thru me... n i didnt even say anything when u hang out wif them... n wat lame reason u gv for not coming down while in actual fact u jus do ur emo acting so u dun hv to come down....
plz, im not born yesterday, n i didnt go to school for the sake of being taken in wif stupid reasons n fake acts... oh yea, im jus an officer, while u hold an EXECUTIVE position in ur company, wif ur lil BB, that makes it as if u r so damn important... whats wif u not under SG payroll, but instead under Maldives HR... who am i, whose bound only under spore govt, to compete wif u... haha, i laff big ass off when i know abt that lil story u spun.... but nevertheless, ive nvr told this story of urs to that one person who is deeply in love wif u rite now... nope, im not that cruel...
like u wish to hv, not to trouble us all... i take it literally.. but dun go around wif pitiful face saying u r lonely, had no one to turn to, bla bla bla... cos, u r the one who chose to be that way.... we r always here... u dun wanna open up n b frank abt things, i hv nuthin to say then...
oh btw, i hv nvr say"beware of her"... i only say "jus be careful" cos i dun wan another person ive known to be heartbroken... but i guess, im misintepreted, as always....
p.s : beauty is only skin deep...
